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Helloooo~ everyone! I'm back from a long hibernation..*!?* No, of course I haven't been hibernating like a bear or something.. but yeah I've been gone for a pretty long time, eh? And I can't say I'm fully "awake" yet.
Having lost my mood, my inspiration, and worst; my skills, I haven't been drawing. (Almost) Not at all. Besides, I've been very busy being a freshman in university..hehe. My major's got nothing to do with art and stuffs (And ChE is so not an easy/relaxed major ), so I've kinda got no inspiration or motivation to get back on drawing. I haven't even draw during my 6 weeks term break.
And..couple weeks after I posted my last journal entry, I felt like leaving dA. Well you can see I've been ignoring my account here..(And I'm very sorry for that!! All those comments, favs, everything.. I'm terribly sorry for ignoring them. But I really THANK YOU for doing so. Really. ) I still open up the page once in a while, though. Just checking out how my gallery's been. Very RARE, though.

Then a few days ago, I thought of quitting dA forever, like, deleting the account or something (since I haven't done anything with it anymore.. and I feel kinda sorry for people who watch me and looking forward for my next artworks and stuffs. I really am sorry ) But then I noticed the new layout and everything, and..I just feel like I can't leave! Hehe. It's waaaaay cooler than the last time I saw it. (When was it? Looooong time ago. LOL) It's tempting. LOL

Soo.. I'm thinking of getting back on drawing. Back on dA or something. Trying to regain back my skills. But I don't do much for public consumption or something. I'll be doing it for my own pleasure. I'm not going to take requests and stuffs. (I'm really sorry for those requests I haven't done yet.. I think I'm gonna have to cancel them. I've gotta regain back my skills, at least for now.. I guess)

OK so now I'm back on dA, I'll be working on my skills (I've found a new partner for this art stuffs, yay! ), getting better if possible.. It'd be like starting from scratch. Soo.. I'm thinking of moving to a new gallery (Though I've created the account long ago.. *so no one'd take the ID before me, LOL)

But I'm not moving yet, I'll see if I can handle this old gallery.. but if I can't.. then I'm moving.

I'll be drawing for myself, taking photographs for myself, all for my own pleasure. I don't mind taking comments, critiques, or anything, but I (think I) won't be bothered much. I'll just do it the way I like it.

By the way, next term in freshman year starting very soon! Next week I'll be back to campus and get busy with everything again.. (Should've done this during the holiday, eh? Stupid me. ) So I'm not sure if I'll be updating much.. But stay tune if you'd like

So.. Welcome back, me!


_{See you around}

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Goodbye high school.. Goodbye my (rather) carefree teenage life.. *drama queen mode: on*

Hahaha..ok, it's turned off now. LOL. Never mind that.

To all my (former) 12th grader friends who have graduated, congratulations! And keep on fighting; it's just the start, mates. It's a whole new world.

Yeap, I finally graduated high school. And as expected, I got a 10 for math *again*. Alhamdulillah I was also able to beat my rival by 0.15 pts, the same score she used to beat me 3 years ago

Like I said in my journal back then [link], I'm already qualified to continue my study at University of Indonesia, in the Faculty of Engineering, majoring in Chemical Engineering..through PPKB/PMDK program (with no tests). So the graduation news was all I've been waiting for. Now that the graduation news is announced, after the graduation ceremony..I'll be ready to be a college kid. Well..I should be.

..College, huh? To be considered as an adult.. Oh well, here's where the real life start.
Yeah, I know..I don't seem to be excited or anything. I don't know..I've got this weird mood lately. I don't feel excited over anything. Feels like..well it's rather empty. I can't even draw. (I guess that's why I haven't drop by here lately..not even replying to your messages.. sorry, I lost my mood ) I can't even think of anything significant. Well yeah, I just feel like I have no certain desire right now..
Gosh..I'm so obsessed with nothing.

I think I'll be gone (again) for a while.

By the way, it's been 2 years now since I joined dA. Thank you for everyone who's been supporting me and appreciating my work. Yeah, I meant all of you guys. Thank you.
I don't know if I'll still be drawing later..well I'm still not much of an artist. Hmph now I'm really questioning what my real talent is. (Who says I'm multi-talented? I'm just a bit of everything.)



<sub>I just want someone out there to know; I gotta admit that..I really miss you.


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I'm Dear Friends in the deviantART One Piece music crew!</sub></sub>

<sub>"Bangkit itu..susah; Susah melihat orang lain susah. Senang melihat orang lain senang.

Bangkit itu..takut; Takut korupsi. Takut makan yang bukan haknya.

Bangkit itu..mencuri; Mencuri perhatian dunia dengan prestasi.

Bangkit itu..marah; Marah ketika martabat bangsa dilecehkan.

Bangkit itu..malu; Malu jadi benalu. Malu karena minta melulu.

Bangkit itu..tidak ada; Tidak ada kata menyerah. Tidak ada kata putus asa.

Bangkit itu.. Aku..untuk Indonesiaku."

-- quote from Deddy Mizwar's 100 tahun Kebangkitan Nasional</sub>


gw suka iklan yg ini. what an ideology. iklan2 100thn kebangkitan nasional lainnya cuma cuap2 omong kosong doang.
pertanyaannya adalah... kapan dong Indonesia bangkit??

well, you know what I mean.
hmmph..
100 tahun kebangkitan..dari kubur. yaitu ya masih jadi zombie juga. 100 tahun berlalu..zombie tetap zombie. kapan bakalan "bangkit" yang berarti "terlahir kembali"?

BBM naik, smua harga naik. langsung demo dan rusuh di mana2. orang2 pada ngutuk2 pemerintah.
perubahan? oh, banyak.. orang miskin makin miskin. orang kaya makin kaya. (yaiyalaah APBN defisit..wong uang negara dikorupsiin) orang bodoh makin bodoh..tapi orang pinter mungkin jadi bodoh..
bilangnya sih dana BLT sbg kompensasi atas knaikan BBM, tapi nyatanya..BLT itu buat nyuap rakyat miskin biar ga banyak protes! iya ngga?
sementara orang terkaya di Asia Tenggara ada di Indonesia..! knapa ga kekayaan lu disumbangin aja ke rakyat miskin?? seenggaknya rakyat miskin bisa jadi lebih sejahtera! ato tutupin kekurangan APBN pake kekayaan lu itu.. niscaya BBM ga perlu dinaikin!
atau duit yang dihambur2kan buat perayaan 100 tahun kebangkitan nasional kmrn dibagi2in ke rakyat miskin, bisa sejahtera mereka!
see? what on earth the government know about their people? kapan coba pemerintah Indonesia ngeluarin kebijakan? yg mereka keluarin itu peraturan, bukan kebijakan..

hmm..klo gitu ganti pertanyaan; kapan sih Indonesia bisa cerdas? (pinter sih mungkin..*tapi segelintir doang.. sisanya? pake ijazah boongan..* tapi cerdas kagak!) ya pemerintahnya.. ya rakyatnya.. ya negerinya!

pak.. bu.. gimana Indonesia mau berubah klo yang bner2 pengen ngubah cuma segelintir doang smntara sisanya nyomotin uang negara? (baca = korupsi)

kalo begini ceritanya, iya gitu bangga menjadi anak Indonesia?</i>
ada juga malu deh.

seandainya ada orang Malaysia ngomong: (knp jg hrs Malaysia? hehe no offense please, Malaysian. yahh orang apa aja deh, orang gila jg boleh.)
_{"PEMERINTAH INDONESIA GA CERDAS BANGET, KEBUDAYAANNYA DICURI KALEM2 AJA.. YAHH GA HERAN MEREKA GOBLOK, PENDIDIKANNYA AJA TERBELAKANG.. GA USAH LIAT SEKOLAHNYA DEH, ORANG2NYA AJA LULUS SEKOLAH PAKE BOCORAN.. TAMAT KULIAH AJA IJAZAHNYA BOONGAN..! PANTESAN JAGO KORUPSI, DI SEKOLAH AJA BELAJAR MAIN CURANG!!"}

ini bahasa kasarnya lho ya..seandainya ada yang bilang begitu.. kita sbg bangsa Indonesia..MARAH, atau MALU???

lihat diri kita sendiri, kawan.

sebuah bibit perbuatan yang kecil, bisa menghasilkan buah yang besar.
jika bibitnya baik, kemungkinan besar hasilnya baik. jika bibitnya buruk..pantaskah mengharapkan hasil yang baik??



..SEMANGAT PERUBAHAN..!!


<sub>*maap dipost ulang, maklum otak gw baru connect klo malem
maaf juga untuk ksalahan2 dalam berkata2. diharapkan untuk mencerna baik2 isi dari posting ini. sangat diperbolehkan untuk mengkritik, diharapkan tidak menjatuhkan*
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I'm Dear Friends in the deviantART One Piece music crew!</sub></sub>

<sub>wew.. I got tagged by many people.. , , and yeah, they got me. TT^TT
and you'll find out what "the end" means by the end of this tag.

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

Here they are:
1. my internet connection has been so lame lately
2. I have a big garden around my house and I have many pets playing around the garden (although some of them have RIP now) hahaha yeah I do love pets
3. I have 2 cute and smart bunnies; Cheetah and Choky. they really are smart; 2 weeks ago, they broke out their cage and went missing for 2 days, but in the afternoon on the 2nd day, they're already back in front of their cage! smart bunnies X3 [link]
4. last tuesday, I had 2 new pets, the mini-bunnies; Mochi and Bolu.  they're very very cuuute!! X3 (too bad I haven't taken photos of them yet, I gotta borrow a camera from someone )
5. I have a cute handsome muscular cat who is afraid of my bunnies! (Grey, you're a shame to the cats' species!) here's the handsome yet cowardly boy [link]
6. I've ever had a kangaroo as a pet. she's a Papuan kangaroo, the land-kangaroo type. she's smart, cute, and she loved eating corns and imitating other species' behavior. here she is [link]
7. I've never gone abroad nor  taken a flight on a plane.. neither crossed the border of Java and Lampung province.. poor me
8. the tag said to write things about myself yet I mostly write about my pets.. lolol they're MY pet anywats


and another tag came from

RULES
#1) You must fill out EVERY question! No skipping!
#2) Tag five people


ARE YOU?

1. Perfect?
nobody's perfect. I'm nobody.
so.. I'm perfect. mwahahaha just kidding of course

2. Tall?
now that you mentioned, I haven't measured my height for a pretty long time..

3. In your pajamas?
well of course I don't wear pajamas while working!

4. Left handed?
I'm a righty..

LAST:

1. Friend(s) you saw:
BP and ririn

2. Talked on the phone:
dad

3. Person to text you:
zsa", if I'm not mistaken..

4. Was today better than yesterday?
not at all. it's supposed to be a holiday!! why am I working for the whole week?? D:

FAVORITES:

1. number:
1, 2, 5

2. Color(s):
blue, white, black, grey, orange

3. Fruit:
orange, melon, watermelon

4. Place:
my room

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:

Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
prayed

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
yeah. MANY THINGS

Q: What was the last movie you saw?
What Happens in Vegas

Q: Where is the last place you went?
toilet? -_-;

Q: Do you smile a lot?
..err I dunno

Q: Do you wish upon the stars?
nope

Q: Are you a friendly person?
errr..I dunno

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
my bed

Q: When was the last time you cried?
a week ago, perhaps

Q: What was the last thing you thought before you went to sleep last night?
I had a lot of things in my mind

Q: Rate life as of right now one being bad, ten being great?:
3.5

Q: What do you want to hear right now?:
someone's voice which I used to like listening to so much.. now it's so much different

Q: Does anything hurt right now?
sort of

Q: What's your favorite month?
the months where I can get weeks off

Q: What did you do last night?
watched Bioskop Trans TV, haha lol

EIGHT EMOTIONS:

1. Are you missing someone right now?:
so much. why did you change?

2. Are you happy?
not really

3. Are you sad?
sort of

4. Are you bored?
sitting in the same spot working the whole week morning to late evening while I was supposed to have a holiday? YEAH

5. Are you nervous?
a little

6. Are you tired?
YES. I wish someone realize that. hey dude, it's your job!!

ABOUT YOU:

001. Real name?
I'll give you the initials: NAZ

002. Nicknames?
nadhila, dhila, dhilaAZ, dh

003. Eye Color?
very dark brown

004. Zodiac Sign?
sagittarius

005. Male or female?
female

006. slut?
wth 'course not

007. Smart?
people says so

010. Hair color?
black

011. Long or short?
short

012. Sweats or jeans?
jeans

013. Phone or Camera?
I don't have a camera and I don't ude my phone a lot, so..?

014. Drink or smoke?
neither, thanks

015. Tattoos?
nope

016. Right or Lefty?
right

FIRSTS:

017. First Best Friend:
err can't remember

018. First crush:
can't remember

019. First pet:
can't remember

020. First big Vacation:
darn I can't remember anything

CURRENTLY:

021. Eating?
nothing

022. Drinking?
nothing

023. I'm about to:
go home. FINALLY.

024. Listening to:
The Calling - Our Lives

025. Plans for today:
finishing the unfinished business

026. Taller or shorter?
huh?

027. Romantic or spontaneous?
whatever

028. Sensitive or loud?
Sensitive

029. Hook up or relationship?
..?

HAVE YOU EVER:

030. Drank bubbles?
what bubbles?

031. Lost glasses/contacts?
nope

032. Ran away from home?
err..

033. Broken someones heart?
dunno

034. Been arrested?
nope

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

035. Miracles?
sometimes.

036. Yourself?
I have to, but sometimes I don't..

037. Heaven?
sure

038. Santa Claus?
nope

039. Love?
not sure

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

040. Do you like someone?
yea I guess

041. Do you believe in God?
that's rukun iman the 1st

042. Answered all the questions truthfully?
I guess so


now I tag.. noone! that's why I said it's THE END! mwahaha


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I'm Dear Friends in the deviantART One Piece music crew!</sub></sub>